Time Counts

I’ve been helping Noah Weiss with his WordPress.com site and found his article on countdowns triggered a memory for me.

There are many forms of countdowns in our lives. Counting down as a warning, to prepare for launch, to time a game. There are also many ways to count up, counting to ten to control anger or prevent anger, control the length of an event, and measure your life in either direction. There are so many ways countdowns also represent times, times in our lives, counting up or counting down, measurements of moments.

One of my most memorable time countdown moments was in Israel. There are two holidays that rip me up every time. Holocaust Day and Independence Day. Both are started and ended with a siren that lasts two minutes. Everyone and everything in the country comes to a complete stop during those two minutes. Cars stop on the highway. People stop walking. People stand still no matter where they are. Trains, buses, everything comes to a complete stop throughout the entire country and silence falls dramatically (Israel is a noisy place).

The first time I experienced it, it hit me with a wave of discomfort. I didn’t know how long it would last and it felt like it lasted forever. I looked around at all the people stopped, standing next to their cars on main roads, and was very uncomfortable with the silence. I understood the significance, but I didn’t understand. I think I didn’t want to understand. Two minutes was a countdown representative of an eternity in that moment.

The second time, I had a better perspective on the reasons for the moment. I looked around and noticed people standing still, tears quietly flowing down their faces. Grim faces. Some people holding hands or each other. A young child grasp in arms squirming until the adult snuggled down into the child’s neck and both became still.

Years of history flowed into those two minutes. History representative of horror and destruction. Of loss. Of death. Of live. Of birth. Of renewal. Of faith. Of courage. As George Carlin so eloquently described it, “I say life began about a billion years ago and it’s a continuous process. Continuous, just keeps rolling along.”

In those two sets of two minutes, I felt a part of something, connected to the past and the future. It’s a countdown that goes in both directions. How long since when and how long until when – the when is a big question and it will happen whether or not we ask the question.

As you move through your life, pause for a moment and consider the moments when time counted for you. Stopping time to remember time is a powerful thing.

Love Letters of Wood

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A text and a chat alerted me to Brent getting way to excited about sharing something with me. I was driving, so it had to wait until I was in a safe place. The alerts on my phone instructed me to check my email for a love letter.

This is what I got.

Lorelle:

I checked the beams in the garage last night. The first two I checked were at 34% moisture content – which is the maximum my meter will read. I also measured 24% and 20% depending on the piece.

I went to Restore again today. I found a beam that is thick and straight and dry and already glued up. 6″ x 15″ x 18′ for $2 a foot = $36 total. So I paid for it and will pick it up tomorrow. I’ll cut it in half with the chain saw. The wood inside is beautiful, looks like Douglas Fir, and the grain is all vertical, very tight and as nice as or nicer that the beams we got from the barn.

Photos attached.

Love you!

Brent

This is my version of a love letter from my husband. Sure, everyone needs mushy words of love and devotion, but after twenty years together, I get excited more when he’s excited. For the past two years, anything made of wood gets his passion flowing.

I love it.

The Mystery of the Stargate Coasters and the Pears

Box and coasters representing the gate from Stargate - photography by Lorelle VanFossen.This is a story about the mystery of the Stargate Coasters and the pears.

The story begins with Stargate episodes on Amazon.com. It probably begins further back, but that is where I will start.

I’ve been having trouble sleeping for the first time in my life. My mother, once a chronic insomniac, continues to be jealous of my ability to drop off anywhere, no matter the noise or distractions. If I need sleep, I sleep, anywhere, in any position, at any time – except for naps. I’ve never been a napper. She’s attest to that. With changes in my body the past two years, my system is slowly stabilizing and sleep is returning, but it has been a battle.

A science fiction fan, a few months ago I started spending my sleepless hours snuggled up in bed watching reruns of Stargate SG-1, Stargate Atlantis, and Stargate Universe on Amazon.com, taking advantage of their Amazon Prime membership and Amazon Instant Prime Videos. Unfortunately, Amazon continues to make it extremely difficult for members without an iPhone or Amazon Fire. Android continues to be ignored, even though it is the fastest growing mobile OS worldwide.

A slip of the finger and I’ve purchased an episode or season. This leads to time wasted going to my desktop computer and contacting them for a refund since these are available for free.

The storyline expands with our housemate and his preparation for moving to Canada. In preparation for his move, he ordered computer equipment and materials he will need in his new home, as anyone would when preparing for a big move and life change. Along with Christmas presents, daily visits from UPS, FedEx, and other shipping companies have been a daily routine for months. The boxes pile up and are sorted and divided up when we get time. Continue reading

Snow on the Road

Snow on the road from Breitenbush Hot Springs, Oregon, 2012, photography by Lorelle VanFossen.

I love driving in the snow. Yeah, I know that most people freak out, but I’ve always been calm and cool when driving in winter conditions, even extreme. I know what I’m doing and I have total confidence in my abilities. What I don’t have confidence in are the other people.

I was thrilled when the snow started coming down in waves of great flakes on our last day at Breitenbush Hot Springs. It feel on our warm faces and into the waters of the meadow hot pools. You could see the snowflake as it sank and melted into the water. It was beautiful and amazing, and cold.

Brent wanted to leave early but I reminded him that it is always safer to drive on compact snow rather than slushy stuff. We had lunch and then headed out.

The trees bent down over the road with the weight of the snow accumulated over the past few days, creating a tunnel of white and shades of gray.

Love it. What a great way to leave our peaceful retreat and re-enter the world.

Aerial Cat Babysitting

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DJ in tree as tree climber grabs him - by Lorelle VanFossen

DJ stuck in the top of a tree with arrow pointing by Lorelle VanFossenIn the fall of 2010, I showed up in Dallas for OpenCamp having slept only a few hours a night for the past week. I told my friends that I had been an aerial cat babysitter, hosting the neighbor’s young cat 150 feet up in a tree in my “yard.” They didn’t believe I owned trees that tall. Well, I do.

For three days I kept hearing a cat crying around the house. We wandered all over the property looking for him. On the fourth night, Brent and I went out late with a flash light hunting for the meowing cat that kept us awake during the night. I kept circling the same tree with no luck, sure he was there somewhere in the brush, caught on a piece of barbed wire left from when this was agricultural land, with a tree limb on him, something. Nothing.

On instinct, I swung my flashlight up and two sparkling eyes shone down from about 100 feet up in the tree. Crap. Continue reading

First Stray Sock Dolls

Sock dolls handmade by Lorelle VanFossen

stray socks book oneWalking through an Asian bookstore, I feel in love with Stray Sock Sewing: Making One of a Kind Creatures from Socks. What a delight! I’ve made dolls on and off through the years but these were adorable. Above are my first attempts at making the stray sock dolls.

Stray Socks Sewing Book tooIt didn’t take long before I found the sequel, Stray Sock Sewing, Too: More Super-Cute Sock Softies to Make and Love, and went even more bonkers, which I will share later.

I took both books with me to Arizona where my step-mother and I had a great deal of fun, including making one for Alan Dean Foster. They were given to the local children’s hospital.

What I love about making these is that while the patterns get you some fantastic creature shapes, it’s up to you to choose interesting socks and the details that customize the final creature. With little effort, every one is completely unique, and always adorable and huggable.

You don’t need to know how to sew or even use the sewing machine. If you can thread a needle and know how to stitch a hem, you can make these imaginative stuffed dolls, animals, creatures, and who-knows-what.

My only warning so far is to NOT overstuff the animals. Most fun socks are also made cheaply and the yarn stretches, leaving gaps and openings in the material revealing the stuffing. I chose very cheap socks for my initial projects, found at Goodwill which often features new socks not just used. I found a huge collection of different colored and sized brand new socks at Goodwill for only a couple dollars a pair. I found more for a dollar each at the local dollar store.

If you are looking for a great crafty thing to do for the child-like people in your life, or for a fundraising craft project, consider these two books as great resources.

The Story of the Magical Mystery Door

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Shashi Bellamkonda took this amazing photograph of my magical mystery door when he was visiting our home outside of Portland, Oregon. Here’s the story of the door.

When I was a child, we’d make frequent trips over the Cascade Mountains to visit family in Eastern Washington. Just before Leavenworth was “The Alps,” a small A-frame home and candy store between Highway 2 and Jolanda “Lake,” a dammed lake that pauses the river as it rushes down the mountains towards the Bavarian town of Leavenworth, five miles away.

My father could make friends with strangers in seconds, and such was the case with the Marlins when they opened The Alps early in the 1960s. My parents were thrilled with chance to stop, stretch legs, and let the children use the bathroom. We kids were dazzled and thrilled with the handmade candy, paintings, Happy Rock fairies, occasional batches of puppies, but best of all was the amazing yard filled with magical and mysterious handmade things to play on.

There were the usual swings, teeter totter, and other playground equipment, but what always thrilled me was the sight of the door.

It was just a normal door. A door you might find in any home. It grew a little weather worn over the years but it was just a door.

Most importantly, it was a closed door.

An open door means little to a little girl with too much imagination packed between her ears. A closed door offered mystery. Who knew what lay beyond that door. What adventures, what vistas, what strange and wild people, what path would I end up on if I opened that door.

As I grew older, The Alps meant more than the best fudge you’ve ever slipped between your lips. I’d think about that door and imagine what I would find beyond it. I’d paint great cities, wilderness, vast deserts, huge gardens, strange planets…all unfamiliar and exciting terrains. I’d see people wearing colorful flowing outfits, or silvery tight fitting clothing like I saw on funky science fiction shows.

By the time we arrived, I had the vision of what lie beyond the door clearly in my head. I’d race through the shop and down the stairs to the kitchen and out the back door to the yard, a wave hello to old Mr. Marlin stirring up a pot of brittle, caramels or penuche as I raced by him.

I’d head straight for the door, my hand out stretched, then pause as I felt the cold handle under my fingers.
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A Tool Shop Gallery

My cousin’s husband, Don, has an amazing garage. A long time oil worker in Washington State, he’s the perfect handyman, doing woodwork, metal work, renovating and building cars, boats, and always ready with a screwdriver.

One of the greatest joys I have visiting them is exploring the gallery he’s set up of his old tools, construction hats, and license plates. The tools, parts, and pieces are so artistically and yet organically arranged, it fascinates me to no end.

On many visits, I’ve used the light coming in through the garage door and reflecting and bouncing in from the floor and walls to naturally illuminate the back walls and darker tool areas. I’d tried using flash, but it was too harsh and reflected too much on the shiny tools. A tripod kept the camera still for the long shutter speeds in the low light. A gold diffuser helped not just bounce some light in but added some warmth.

The tools come from his family and his collection over the years, all carefully arranged tightly together, yet like artwork, admired for their continued usefulness or the memories they inspire.

As we put together our own shop and garage, I’m going to use many of the features I’ve learned from studying Don’s beautiful garage, showcasing much beloved tools as artwork.

A New Approach to Cat Napping

Brent napping with kitten Holiday with paws on his face

Brent’s favorite thing to do on weekends is to catch up on his sleep quota. Nothing is better than snuggling with one of the cats. In 2007, our Alabama redneck rescue, Holiday, thought there was nothing better in the world than snuggling with his new dad in the warm afternoon.

I peeked into the bedroom of our trailer to find Holiday with his paws on Brent’s mouth as if shutting him up so he could sleep. I’m not sure who was shutting up whom as Holiday purrs and snores great volumes, but it was too cute to pass up.

brent napping with holiday paws on face-2To the right is what I found first before I made a sound and caught the attention of Holiday. It didn’t change his position much. When he’s in sleep comfort – when both of them are in sleep mode – not much will disturb them.

It’s now 2011 and I bet if I walk upstairs right now in the heat of another weekend afternoon thousands of miles from Alabama in our home in Portland, Oregon, I would find the two of them curled up together napping. Wonder if Holiday is shutting Brent up again, or this time, Brent has his paws on Holiday.

Just Bugging You

Animated bugI’m not a fan of funny email jokes (seen them 58 times before you did and emailed it to me), videos, and other virtual time wasters. But this one had me going for over an hour. I emailed the graphic to a bunch of my RVing and outdoorsy friends and they are now having too much fun with it.

This was originally shared by John Nash on Google+. Enjoy!

Tree House

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Traveling around the Oregon countryside during the Lavender Festival, I found this amazing tree house soaring up into the forest ceiling. It was around the McMinnville area and also featured a whole survival boot camp layout with a rope and board tree-to-tree bridge, tires to climb through and over, and other obstacle courses.

I’ve always wanted to build my own tree house like I did as a kid. I was so brave then, hauling up boards and bits of left over lumber from the building of our house in Lake Stevens, Washington, using bent roof nails to pound the boards into the trees without a thought as to the health of the trees.

How I’ve changed, becoming more humane to trees, but I still long for that tree house.

Now that I have my own forest, I need to look into healthy and safe ways of building tree houses that respects the trees. Hmm.

Sadness at the End of a Space Era

Friday morning, I was up predawn working in the yard, taking advantage of the cool air before the summer heat chased me inside. Summer has finally arrived in the Pacific Northwest – well, at least in the Portland, Oregon, area. Sweating and covered with dirt and leaves, I jumped into my truck for a fast dash to Home Depot to pick up some much needed bits and pieces for the many projects I have planned this summer.

I parked the truck just as the last five minutes counted down on the final flight of the Space Shuttle Atlantis began. As I listened through the count, including the few minute delay at the 30 second mark, I found tears flowing down my face. I didn’t feel sad, but it was clear, I was touched by this moment, the end of an era that so influenced my generation.

Over the years, we watched rockets go up and come down, defining earth’s gravity. Skylab was built, then fell into the earth’s atmosphere and burn up. I cheered when the International Space Station finally added the final piece to make it habitable. Hope rang in my soul that someday I would travel out to the stars as we seemed to race forward towards that goal.

As a fan of Star Trek, my teenage years revolved around repeat episodes on television of the classic original version. Having sat with my family to watch the first launch of astronauts into space and those famous first steps on the moon, which resulted in an amazing pastel painting my mother did of the rocket’s launch out into the great unknown, space travel filled my imagination.

I didn’t consider Star Trek “science fiction.” I came late to my passion for science fiction. Star Trek was adventure. It was the imagination of life in space made real. It was a powerful representation that Earth could get its shit together, figure out how to solve our problems and work together so we could go out and help others solve their problems and get their shit together. It was patriotism at its finest.

As I grew up, I saw Star Trek devices become a normal part of our lives. Doors that slid open as you approached, doctor’s beds that tilted, medical scanning devices get smaller and more portable, computers get smaller and portable, computerized tablets and handheld computers…cell phones that look like Starfleet communicators…the list is so long.

I also watched our lives be changed by the research and innovation by NASA and its supporting agencies and businesses. Besides the powdery drink, Tang, and pens that could right upside down or at any angle, science, technology, and medicine were dramatically changed by the space race. Continue reading

Walking the Cat in Mobile, Alabama

Brent VanFossen and Howard West, walking the cat, photograph by Lorelle VanFossen

Of the last photographs I have of my father, this one is a favorite. It features my father, Howard West, and my husband, Brent VanFossen, walking the campground in Mobile, Alabama, where we lived for a year and a half. It was about four or five months after Hurricane Katrina and the panic of the aftermath had died down in the campground, which was used as a staging area by insurance and recovery workers.

One of the victims of Hurricane Katrina was the little tiger tabby kitten that arrived at our campsite the night I arrived with my father from Seattle. I brought him to us in Alabama to spend a winter being warm instead of freezing in his cold and damp house up north. The kitten, eventually named Holiday, arrived on Thanksgiving and by Christmas we knew he was ours.

Holiday loved to go on walks, following us around the campground, but always returning back with us demanding the love and attention he missed, losing his family, cat and human, in the storm. We tried for weeks to track down his owners to no avail, and now, we couldn’t imagine life without him.

As I look at this picture of the three of them, I remember how happy my father was there. Not completely happy, but content to sit out in the sun, read his book, and talk to the locals. And he adored that kitten. We’d brought his own cat, but there was something about Holiday – you just couldn’t help but want to snuggle him close.

My father died a few months later, after 30 years battling health problems. He rarely walked, but he got around quite a bit in the warmth of the Alabama winter.

For me, it’s the way I want to remember my father.

The Bridge Over La Conner, Washington

Bridge over La Conner, Washington, by Lorelle VanFossen

I’m a little uncomfortable sharing this photograph. My cousin, Don Lee, looks at this view daily. It’s his favorite in the world, right outside his home in La Conner, Washington. Helping him with his photography, I encouraged him to photograph it every day as a photo montage for a year. If you sat only a few minutes with him you would completely understand why I gave him the assignment as he speaks about the bridge, the river below, the town beyond, and Mt. Baker beyond that, like it’s a personal and intimate friend, with mood swings and attitude.

We were having a discussion about this very scene when the stormy weather shifted and the setting sun burst through with golden rays, turning the bridge the most brilliant shade of orange. I grabbed my camera and the two of us photographed this monument to man’s power to defy a river.

Don, I know my picture is humble. Your work is phenomenal and someday I hope you exhibit the entire year’s worth of pictures of the bridge across the channel to La Conner.